‘Sometimes your only available transportation is a leap of faith’ (Margaret Shepherd). Six months ago when the seemingly far off time of my children leaving home to pursue their big bold lives actually arrived, the exciting next phases of my big bold life were revealed. Work, life, relationships, travel… Following the paths of possibility meant giving up my grounding to jump into the unknown in much the same way I was encouraging my university aged kids to.
In what seemed to many an extreme series of decisions, I gave up my residence, packed my life into storage and bought plane, train, and bus tickets that took me to locales across North America. The idea of being so free of stuff made me giddy! Keeping my laptop always within reach I was able to work from (almost) anywhere, although not always with the gracefulness I would have liked. Truthfully, the first week was hell. I was uneasy, nervous, a tad nauseous, as I tried not to fret about how this new phase was going to unfold. The second week was incredible – lighter, clearer, slightly more trusting, it was surprising how accustomed I was becoming to the reality of being untethered.
Since I was unsure as to what my final destination was, I had absolutely no idea how I was going to find it and then get there. Sure the travel tickets meant I was constantly ‘on the go’ but was I actually headed somewhere? What I did know was that by staying where I was I wasn’t going anywhere. So, I leapt. I held tight to the thin bumper of my faith in myself, and went for it… Crazy!
Not surprising, a few realizations have surfaced along this journey. It turns out that my leap wasn’t without many nets as encouraging friends were prepared to help me land wherever that turned out to be. I don’t know if I would have truly realized the extensive network of love I have around me, if I had not stepped out of my comfort zone. Work continues as it alway has, only richer from the advantage of looking through new perspectives. What a gift – I wish this experience for everyone.
The most unexpected result has been the new found trust in myself. Turns out that a) you can’t trust everyone, and that’s not your fault; b) you can trust yourself and that is your fault; c) if you are prepared to truly believe in yourself, to be mindful of the lessons you have learned, to acknowledge that ultimately the only control you have comes down to how you handle the moments of your life as they unfold, then having a life comprised of leaps of faith is not only viable, it may be all you need.
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Well done (not to mention “said”), Louise!
Crazy-great courage is ESSENTIAL to enabling us to separate fear-inspired self deceptions from the genuine truths of who we are, why we’ve become who we are, and what we must begin and continue doing if we wish to change who we are.
The latter is especially true if one’s life goal is to die knowing that. when given the chance and able, you chose to help bring about meaningfully positive differences for others less fortunate and Planet Earth, which gives each of we who’ve been more fortunately gifted and inspired everything we need to do so.
What a fantastic response Ken. You state so clearly how we can hold ourselves back over the fear of the unknown and lack of faith in ourselves. It is certainly an ongoing process of discovery.